Archive for April, 2009

Reading for Inspiration & Affirming Our Inner Knowing

Tuesday, April 21st, 2009

I’ve decided that instead of reading for information, that I’d rather read for inspiration. You see, I am an addict. I’m addicted to buying books, reading books, recommending books and surrounding myself with books.  Heck, I’m even writing a book!

Like most addicts, my addiction started from a sense of lack in my life and a belief that experts and authors had access to information that I didn’t. If I wasn’t reading a self-help book, I was attending workshops and seminars in hopes of “getting some of that stuff” the experts had, and at some extent hoping that some of that “stuff” could help me change my life. I suppose you could say that I was always searching for something magical outside of myself; something to make me happy, make me feel worthy and to help me feel a sense of inner peace.

Fast forward about ten years and I can honestly say that although my love affair for books remains, it looks very different than it did back then.  For one thing, I now give myself permission to read books other than nonfiction.  The old “I need fixing” had me convinced that I could not waste precious time reading something frivolous like Emily Dickenson for fear of missing something important.  If there wasn’t a purpose in my reading, I said forget it.  I can still hear those old voices in my head saying, “Life’s too short, can’t you see I’m in a race here? Wasting time is not an option!”  Thank goodness I matured and embraced my wisdom to know that if reading a fiction story makes me feel good, then that’s good enough for me!

If “all the answers to life’s questions reside within you,”  then I no longer need to focus on things outside of myself to make me feel better. I only need to look within.  What that means for me is reading for inspiration rather than for information. Right or wrong, I find reading nonfiction these days leaves me feeling either overwhelmed (“Oh my, here are 101 new ways to do such and such that I need to try out”), frustrated (“Geez!  I already knew that!), or just simply tired (“Okay, I’m sleepy here, I’ve read this sentence 4 times and I still don’t get it!).

As I give myself permission to enjoy new and brilliant works of fiction, I anticipate the new worlds I will see, the new people I will meet and the fresh experiences I will have through the characters and plots that await me. And in the end, I will come full circle back home.  Home to the Wise Woman who lives within me who knows that I am perfect just the way I am!

Have an Inspirational month!

Carole L. Billingham, MCC, Spiritual & Business Coach
“Inspiring Spirited Businesspeople to live with Power, Passion and Purpose!”
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